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Pierce Harte, Slytherin Healer
12 July 2014 @ 07:44 pm
Sometimes I have this strong yearning desire to drink life out of the internet. To feel alive in the internet like I used to in my younger days. Except I only open new Chrome tabs just to close them when I realise I have no clue where that life exists anymore. And then I crawl to bed, disenchanted with everything.
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Surroundings: The Floor
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Pierce Harte, Slytherin Healer
11 July 2014 @ 03:04 pm
I had such a positive previous post and right now I feel the need to complain. Except I don't have the energy to do much of that. I'm so drained now that it's the end of the week. The wear and tear of working nonstop and going to the gym three days straight for hour long personal training sessions are finally taking a toll on my body and my mental state. And the best part is that today at work, things were dramatic and stressful, not helping me in any way. I'd love to finally take the opportunity to relax, do something just for myself but I'm waiting for this guy from the security company to show up and inspect our alarm system and I'm so empty on energy that the things I'd like to do to decompress and destress take too much effort for me right now. I'd nap but this guy that's supposed to be showing up can come any time between now and 5pm. And then I have to go to bed a few hours later anyway because I have to be at work tomorrow morning at 6:45am...and up before 6:30am on Sunday for work at my other job.

-______-

I need money. I really do. But when I'm wrung dry, I question why I keep pushing myself so hard week to week.
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Pierce Harte, Slytherin Healer
08 July 2014 @ 10:30 am
I feel like each day is a struggle to keep in check all the things I need to get done for the day. Call this Starbucks store; make this gym session with my personal trainer; don't forget to finish the off-campus housing application and get it in the mail; get to work on time; call that Starbucks store; don't forget to pay your bills on time.

Five months ago, I thought the hardest thing in my life was remembering to take my medication when I'm supposed to. Back then, I wouldn't have been able to simply dial in to a Starbucks store to discuss transferring/rehiring process; not without having a huge panic fit about having to talk to someone on the phone. Moving from day to day concerned about whether I'll suffer an anxiety attack or wake up in pain from my illness was all I could think about then. Now, it's the furthest from my mind.

I just have moments like today where I'm hit with the realisation that I'm functioning like a decently well-adjusted 22 year old adult. I didn't think that was possible so many months ago. I feel sane, normal, stable, and confident in my abilities. I haven't felt this sort of certainty in so many years.

Namaste & Blessed Be~
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Surroundings: Kitchen
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Pierce Harte, Slytherin Healer
04 July 2014 @ 07:41 pm
It has been ages since I've been on here, mostly because my life has been hectic as hell and I purchased a new PC to replace the joke that was my Acer and in the process, forgot my login information. It's taken me till now to have the compunction to resolve the issue.

So many things have happened.

I'm working two jobs. The shit is real. In the last three weeks I have driven my body into the ground with how many extra shifts I've picked up, the lack of sleep, and the sudden onset of demanding workouts thanks to the personal trainer I hired. This week I've been recuperating from food poisoning. I've also found myself getting involved with an attractive older man who works at a Starbucks in my district as a Supervisor. I spent the night at his house for the second time last night.

I'm anticipating going back to college in the fall to finish my final year of undergraduate study. However, after receiving my outlined financial plan for the 2014-2015 academic year, I'm genuinely terrified that I won't be able to afford tuition and will have to settle for dropping out until I can financially support it, or transfer into a different, cheaper school to finish my last year. Right now, I'm cursing my ignorant 18 year old self who made the brilliantly dreadful decision to attend a private college charging 40k/year. -___- As much as I adore my school; the professors, students, atmosphere, and so forth, I am struggling to feel warm and excited about it when I'm staring at the financial plan and considering how the staff could consider the dismal state of the piece of paper to be anything near a plan.

It's also the 4th of July. My least favourite holiday. I hate fireworks and I'm also not a general fan of the country I live in. This annual holiday just serves to remind me that I'd very much like to live someplace else. Clearly that dream is incredibly far off, but I still fervently wish for it every time this holiday comes round.

I felt compelled to post simply because I need an outlet. I feel like I'm going to crack under the pressure of this transient life. I feel like I'm in this limbo between working adult and college student, uncertain which foot I really want to put the most weight into and how to make my balance steady between the two. I know this is simply a part of growing up and living and adulthood but I will have this moment of terror for now.
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Surroundings: Room Cave
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In My Ears: Jolt - Liquid Stranger
 
 
 
Pierce Harte, Slytherin Healer
23 December 2013 @ 02:25 pm
I have several things to be thrilled about today:

It's freaking almost Christmas, for one thing. It's so sodding close (though I wish it was snowing instead of raining).

I was awoken this morning by a phone call from Target. They want to do a phone interview on Thursday for the Starbucks position I applied for last Friday. HELL YES. It's Christmas luck that I got a response so quickly (though if Petsmart calls me about my application I might just keel over with joy).

I don't have any obligations for the day. And that's always thrilling.
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Surroundings: MY BEDROOM
In My Chest: jubilantjubilant
In My Ears: rainfall and tire squelching on wet pavement
 
 
Pierce Harte, Slytherin Healer
19 December 2013 @ 10:48 am
So several things have been determined.

1) I'm not going back to college for the spring semester. My parents say so and they still pay for most of my tuition so I can't argue.

2) Food allergies might have an impact on my gut issues. I was tested (both skin and blood) and I now have to avoid the following foods and then reintroduce each one at a time to see if there's any change:
→ Almonds (and all other tree nuts because of cross-contaminants)
→ Celery
→ Cantaloupe
→ Watermelon
→ Cucumbers
→ Apples
→ Soy
→ Tomatoes
→ Peas
→ Corn
→ Barley
→ Oats
→ Green Peppers (and other bell peppers just to be safe)
→ White Potatoes
→ Sweet Potatoes

Note: that's the majority of my diet as a vegetarian who doesn't drink dairy milk. (yes, still eat cheese and eggs though). And they also noted that intolerances such as dairy or wheat are different and would have to be ruled out as possibilities through trial and error.

So now I have to get creative in the kitchen to try preparing meals that don't including some of my favourites. Plus force myself NOT to eat the things we still have in the house that I'm suddenly unable to have. :/

Mild food crisis, but I'll survive. Hopefully when reintroduction comes at least half of these turn out to be unwarranted.

3) I must now find a full time job. Even though I'll have doctor appointments to schedule around them.
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Surroundings: FAMILY ROOM
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Pierce Harte, Slytherin Healer
17 December 2013 @ 05:27 pm
I just received my Christmas card from enchanted_jae. Totally made my evening! :D Thank you dear.

Now to help my brother study for his history test.
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Surroundings: FAMILY ROOM
In My Chest: happyhappy
In My Ears: What does the Spleen do
 
 
Pierce Harte, Slytherin Healer
07 December 2013 @ 12:43 am
So I've been "sick" since June 10th of this year. I came back from a Study Abroad trip with a nastily swollen sprained ankle and a week later, while being trussed up in bed, I was struck with severe abdominal pain that sent me to the ER and began this arduous process of trying to figure out what the hell is wrong with my body. That abdominal pain persisted every single day for nearly 4 months--some days it was low and easy to ignore with a pain killer while other days it made walking impossible and I just cried and wanted to die.

It has since died away but as a result, I've had to take a medical leave of absence from university. Because of this leave of absence I won't graduate with my degree in May 2014 like planned.

And with no diagnosis and treatment and new symptoms cropping up, my father has said that he doesn't think I should go back to school for the spring term. I've been adamant about going back but at the same time, being home without the stress and demand of academia makes me loathe to go back.

My father insists I make lists of pros & cons for the three options available to me so I figure I'll document them here just in case I need them again in future.

Proceed: Pros & ConsCollapse )

If there's an opinion out there on which option seems the most sensible, I'd love the suggestion.
 
 
Surroundings: MY BEDROOM
In My Chest: pessimisticpessimistic
In My Ears: rainfall and my cat's purring
 
 
Pierce Harte, Slytherin Healer
06 December 2013 @ 06:29 pm
I just watched THIS short film about Albus Dumbledore and his fallout with Gellert Grindewald. It's brilliant, well executed, and just gave me so many feels.

WATCH IT.
 
 
Surroundings: MY BEDROOM
In My Chest: blahblah